This is my letter to her:
Dear Mum,
You were the best mother I could have wished for. God blessed me with a kind and caring mother and I couldn't be more grateful for even just knowing you for the short sixteen years. I am honored to be your Daughter! You were a beautiful intelligent and ambitious woman and always pushed me to do my best even when I thought I didn't have the strength to do so. You showed me the meaning of strength and perseverance at a time when I didn't believe there was anything good left in the world.
There was never a time you weren't there for me Mum, especially when I had severe depression, you got me through it and supported me every night and day until I got back to School. You were so wise and always gave the best advice, even if I didn't take it at the time, later I'd realise that you were right all along. You were the best mother and there's not a memory from my childhood where you weren't playing games with me and my sister or singing to us.
I love you and I'm so sad you're gone after fighting cancer for 9 years. You were only 56 and you had another 30 odd years left in you, its just a shame you didn't get a chance to live that out. But you were suffering and I'm glad that suffering ended so that you're at peace now and I can tell you're watching over me.
There's so many things I want to tell you and share with you, even just to sit down beside you and just get a hug from you when I'm having a bad day. But you'll be forever in my heart my angel and you're in Heaven in the best place you could be. I just wish we could have had more time to do all the things we'd planned like for my wedding and when I have children. I'll tell them all about you but it makes me sad they'll never see your beautiful face or talk to you.
Another thing is that I wish you and J could have had more time to get to know each other because you're both great and quite alike actually. I know you'll watch over both of us because you could see that we loved each other. I wish you could be with me in the physical sense but I can feel you here with me even if I can't see you. I hope I'm as good a Mum to my children as you were to me.
Rest in Peace Mum, I love you forever xxx
To my dear creative, friend across the pond,I am sorry to hear about the passing of your mother.Your in thoughts and your a strong person with great insight into life i know you will make it through this.-Jac!
ReplyDeleteaww thank you my American friend, its much appreciated :)
ReplyDeleteI felt it a nice touch to write her a message of all I needed to say to her :) x
So glad to hear from you again my wise dark eyes from Glasgow,to answer your question in the long winded way people have gotten used to from me.It was a long and brain draining process,and many cups of coffee i chose a name with some relation to my company's name
Delete(Nuclear Rage)I think it has a colorful,exciting,and ominous sound to it,also on a related note im planning on changing my video JAC! Page to a forum that showcase new talent such as your group Desire. I'll give your band some exposure on my website and who knows if possible perhaps when im able to get Jacmania Live the event,organized next year i can bring your band here to perform(Jacmania Live will showcase unknown new talent.Well its my pleasure to be corresponding with you again dark eyes by the way do you have an email address, til' next time keep in touch-Jac!