So, perhaps I have my up-days and down-days. Today I think began on a high as I had double art first period and it was sunny and I was listening to the Beatles, Hey Jude and I'd gotten my EMA (education maintenance allowance) the previous day. But it feels its slowly starting to suck, like all the other days. I don't think it helps that I'm on here when I have 6 pieces of homework to do, all equally important for higher. Perhaps its the curse of 9/11... May I say now, here is a little mention to all the people that died and suffered during 9/11 and after.
It can get really hard. And it's difficult to word in person. So vocally I usually just say "I'm fine" or "It doesn't matter." But it does matter, a lot. Sometimes I wish people were slightly telepathic to emotions. It would save me a lot of time and effort. The grief hits at random times as well. Just even thinking about it can make me want to cry. It's just been so hard and not going up for a while makes it so much worse. She knocks stuff down in the house you know. Occasionally, things that weren't about to fall over.
There's so much stress and work with Higher work. Right now I just want to go to bed. And not bother. But I have to or I'll get kept in, cause teachers don't care if you've just lost a fucking limb, you do the homework if you want your lunch. And at this age, lunch goes so fast.
This is turned into a short post, because I need to at least try this homework. But the reason for the title is my new re-found love of the Beatles, especially Hey Jude, I've been humming it all day!
I also re-watched Across the Universe movie which is a story based around the Beatles songs and its great! Peace out all and listen to some Beatles!
xxx
Yaaay! The woman who made me love blogging is back, my lovely darkeyes at times i wish i could reach through the computer and give you a hug and let you tell me all that is on your heart. When i dont hear from you i'm concerned and... i miss you , you've become an unseen companion to me anytime you need an ear i'll be there for you , I know what its like to have feelings of loneliness at times , please dont hesitate to contact me. I dont care what happens or how long we go without communicating i consider you a friend and i'll always be your friend.-Jac!
ReplyDeleteThank you Sabertooth, my unseen friend from across the pond haha! You are the only blog follower I have and you make me enjoy blogging too my friend! Don't be concerned about me I have many people that keep me straight here and keep me on a good path and I love my blogging very much! I always consider you a friend too! :) x
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